You know It hurts to drift away from someone
and as I said I am not good with the Goodbyes and specially when you have
developed a tremendous longing for her unknowingly and stupidly. And when you
allow yourself to dig up the old memories of shared closeness it left me
deserted. I wish you could have moved on and tell him that you have found
someone who loves you unconditionally and beyond everything and more than him.
I wish you could have.
Yet I have to seat with my laptop with all of
my shattered dreams and stubborn silences. You did the right thing by removing
me from you FB Account. Thanks a ton. Otherwise every time I open FB I have to
ponder over your name for few hours and pretend as if I am not noticing you .I
almost forgot when the last time I have cried. May be a year ago and promised
myself not to cry again. Not for any girl at least but you know destiny has had
other plan for me. My friends says it’s girlie thing but you know I feel to
suffocated if I don’t. My friends say me to grow up but every parts of me
refuses to do so .Even after my heartbreaks. Though I am skeptical It exists or
not. The problem of me is that I have very few friends and after joining
corporate life your social life takes the backseat. You become a loner as your
entire friend gets lost in the rat race.
It was almost funny how after approaching each
other for arranged marriage I fall in love with you that also by residing in
two different states. But you know I have no regrets even if I know we probably
would not meet ever. It all will be faded away one day. My terrace will grew
too small and my heart break will get too big. I dreamt of many things and
shared something which I never shared with till date. My heart. Though I had a
relation earlier but as I said there was no love between us and most
importantly she didn’t succeed to touch my heart which you have done easily.
Yeah I admit it’s very silly for me to fall for someone in just one month. I
should not have but then again I couldn’t stop myself falling for you. You know
what I become insomaniac in these two months along with you. Like couple of
days ago I find night too short for talk to you but it’s too long for me now.
But You know I will be always cherishing the
memories of these two months with you. This is not falling out of touch this
will be more. This is not just growing up this is growing out of each other.
Love…….:)
P.S. :Please smile a lot. You look best
while you smile. As you were complaining that I am not writing these days. I
wrote exclusively for you. You deserve a lot more post which I will write later
on. Thanks a lot for providing me the ingredients to write once more. Love you.
