Official Woes

What a paradox! Life seem to be well started has just changed its gear and out of the blue put the break so hard that it’s really getting difficult to absorb.As they say that happiness and sadness is, indeed, a relative process how you absorb your surrounding situation but let me tell the truth that I am upset about certain things in my office and I can’t hide it out any longer. Some people are playing dirty politics; some people back stabbing others and the most heinous one are playing conman. I am upset that I can’t change the scenario and perhaps hapless as I too come from the genre what you call middle class.

Every time a new relative, I am introduced to, ask regarding my job and after knowing that I work in Salt Lake, Sector-5 they also used to get excited like I work in Moon or so. They felt that we are like the upper crest of the society who is taking India further as far as technology is concerned. We too also used to get fat pay packet any if you are at a good book of your boss (read patronize your boss so well) then you may be get enough lucky to discover the other part of the globe. We also are among the few to flash their Blackberry’s at the age of 25 now you are surely going to envy us but the truth is that you don’t have any fucking idea what we do in the office. I feel that if given a chance to any teenager guy who just knows the basics of computer can perform better than us at any give day.

So, therefore nothing for me other than getting pissed off everyday. I am trying to get rid off the situation or rather my office at best or else I can found myself in the league of losers. I have to something more meaningful in my career, something creative and something that can be done without dirty politics. Everyday I wake up from the bed in the quest of a better life perhaps for a better job that defines me or at least soothes my creative urge which I am still searching………




P.S.-That Blog has been written straight from my computer in my office within just 20 minutes at random otherwise it usually takes 1-2 month to finish one blog.

A Lifeless Life..

Since a long time I am blank. Blank about my prospect, my goal, my priority, my aspiration and my satisfaction. There is nothing in my life right now that can cheer me up. There is a job, which I am not particularly fond of but then again who is going to pay my Credit Card, Mobile and Internet Bills so make compromise with your ability with a smiling face. I am also doing the same and my boss says that I have a great future. Of course I have to have a great future because I am in a process of aping Corporate Culture far well than anybody else. Welcome to New Age Corporate India where people are more concerned about being politically correct rather than being honest. Corporate works like that and somewhere down the line I also might get used of it. There was a time when I just wanted to be like my father, an honest teacher but after spending eight odd years to Kolkata I think to survive here you have to look beyond honesty. It’s not that I am a dishonest guy or encouraging it but honest people really don't fit it here and if they exist then they have to go through a possible nightmare wherever they work. There is an unbridgeable gap between our aspiration and real world.

Of late when I open my Orkut Account I do miss my pictures. In those photos I miss my childhood (Of course there was no Orkut then which later I uploaded),I miss my School and most importantly I miss my days in JU.I seemed to be insanely in love with my life, perfectly in sync with my destiny in those photos in Orkut  but the more I am advancing in my career the more it's getting blurred. I badly need to get out of it or else I have to start a new beginning from any farthest possible corner of the world.